A pinch and a dash

So, Twiggy Fuck continues to desperately email me, which I'm starting to get really annoyed with. Does he have nothing else to do with his life, really? I've discussed the options with my friends and Sorority Sister feels that if I continue to ignore him, he'll stop. She's most likely right, but SSRT signed off on this idea. I think I might just give him an ultimatum.

Twiggy Fuck is begging for a second chance. He is so desperate he has offered to marry me, have children and pay all of my bills. He tells me that he wants to change which includes finally getting treatment for his MS, volunteering and going to mass. I think that's wonderful so I'm thinking I'm going to propose this:
1) pay all of my bills for one year in advance with a cashier's check for $22K.
2)Receive treatment for his MS
3)Go to mass
4)Volunteer

The terms must be met for one year and he must prove his follow through by documentation. Then at the end of one year, if I see a sincere change in his personality I will consider dating him again. I think this is fair and reasonable. Above all, asking for $22K up front is not only ballsy, but most likely a deal breaker. I'm seriously mulling this one over.

In other news, Boat Boy is off to Ireland, and I won't see him or talk to him for two weeks. I miss him and his cock more.

There is a new contender in area that has not yet earned a nickname. (SSRT doesn't feel he should get one, either). We'll be heading out Friday night and I'm terrified. I can't muster up enthusiasm for dating and this is a big push on my part that I'm most likely not ready for.

I'm dick dead broke. So much so I went to the pawn shop today. I get an offer for $135, I being a honest soul that I am fucked myself out of $40 by telling the guy he wants to cut the pendant only to have the offer drop to $90 when he learned that the piece was weighted. Shit! Shit! Shit!

Plans for school have changed a bit. I am not enrolling in classes next semester. This semester is a wash. I'm fried and I want a minute to regroup. Plus too, I don't have the money right now. I'll start again in the fall. This will give me the time I need to get it together financially so I won't have to stop again. Part of me is angry and wants to blame Twiggy Fuck for this whole mess. I just rolled over and showed my belly when it came to my education. Why didn't I stick to my guns when it came to me taking the classes I wanted to take versus the classes he thought I should take? Why did I let him push me into taking Chemistry during the summer when I knew it would leave me feeling burnt out for the fall? Then I start to get angry at myself. Also, by letting that asshole run my life, I lost money by not making as much overtime this year totaling over $10K.

Still settling into night shift. It's going. I miss working 2nd, but I think in the end this was a good move for me. My new roommates move in next weekend. I'm looking forward to having permanent company around the house. I think this is going to be a very good fit.